A Brown Bag
Jeff October 2022 I shuffled down the hallway under the florescent lights and smell of disinfectant carrying a brown bag with a few days’ worth of clothes. No belts, no shoes…
The Singer & The Drink
My addiction lives between my ears and it’s a liar. It feeds my ego, myself-centeredness, and self-esteem. It told me that I was a better person when I drank. That…
Freedom
Shame, Shame, Shame. Those words have rung in my ears for as long as I can remember. It’s an all-consuming force that has surrounded me and oppressed me. Disconnecting me…
I’m My Own Worst Therapist
Wherever I go, there I am. I’ve slowed down and caught up with myself. I have been running my entire life and now there is no place to hide. I…
The Four Gifts
The tears are streaming down my face as I’m driving north on the 101 heading to the National Memorial Cemetery of Arizona. It’s one of those warm December days that…
The Bracelet
It’s December 17th, 2022 “graduation day” from the first stage of my year long journey in rehab and to becoming physically, spiritually and mentally well for the first time in…
Remnants
Thursday December 8th, 2022 I want, what I want, when I want it and I want my mind back. It’s scary. I feel helpless. I’ve never experienced anything like this…
The Watering Can Monster
December 2021 I am a control Freak. I never realized how many people I manipulated over the years to get what I wanted. I love to control, influence and direct…
Why do I say I love to hike when I don’t?
On the surface it seems like such an innocent white lie. Hiking, I list as one of my favorite hobbies on dating apps. I have lived in Arizona for the…
The Dark Tunnel
“Jump” my best friend said. I leapt off our second story deck into the giant snow pile below. I could feel the cold crisp air rush against my face as…